The 20-minute walk you take is better than the 4 miles you didn’t run.
“Perfectionism is not the path that leads us to our gifts and to our sense of purpose; it’s the hazardous detour.” – Brene Brown
I was a competitive soccer player growing up. I felt defeated if I received anything less than an A in school. I did extra credit assignments and workouts even if I wasn’t asked. I was named Homecoming Queen, and voted into respected captain and student body leadership positions…ok, so its safe to say I’ve battled with a little bit of perfectionism.
Completing tasks perfectly and accomplishing high achievements delivered praise, which I would equate to as love and acceptance. It would be natural for me to allow my self-worth to be tangled up with my accomplishments. Letting myself be vulnerable and truly seen means that my flaws are exposed and everyone can see me for the imperfect human that I really am.
Thank GOODNESS for the opportunity to grow and learn. Today I choose to give myself permission to be flawed. This journey to the stage has caused me to practice this on a daily basis. It’s literally something I practice everyday. For goodness sakes I am going to stand on a stage in a competitors bikini with “flawed” marks on my tummy.
This week was far from “perfect.” I am a Mother, a wife, a Director of Education, a personal trainer, a presenter, a Sunday school teacher, a reading volunteer in my daughter’s class, a soccer coach, a landlord, a friend, a sister, a daughter and so on… I’m sure your list looks a similar.
With all these amazing things in my life, I would miss out on incredible opportunities BIG TIME if I was only willing to step into the arena if I’m guaranteed a perfect outcome.
Although I did get all of my workouts in this week, one of them was completed in this very small hotel room in Mexico City, Mexico.
The backpack you see on the shelf doubled as my weighted pack for leg day. In the past I would have been disappointed in myself for not getting it done exactly how my coaches asked, but on this day I was proud of my improvisation.
International travel made it trickier to stick to the nutrition plan, but every meal I sat down to consisted of smart decisions.
If comparison is the thief of all joy, then I would dare to say that perfectionism is the shield to experiencing true love and compassion. Brene Brown says, “If we want freedom from perfectionism, we have to make the long journey form ‘what will people think?’ to ‘I am enough.’ ”
This week was tough, I have a long way to go, and I have come a long way in more ways than just the changes in my body. Here are a few of my progress pics from this week.
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